Kehhalar

As it's said in the title, I have no time and interest in posting/being active on this site (well, on the most social networks). I'm very tired and stressed with everything, also I don't feel my art is interesting to people in here since all of old active watchers and friends ran to other places. So sorry, no updates and no activity. I also don't want to run my groups anymore (and people completely ignored me asking for help). You need to think this page is frozen

Oh, well, I even couldn't add a normal title, just don't know how to title this.

There's so extremely a lot of everything happened in my life and I still don't want to tell more than I said before in my status entry.

I'm in Krasnodar now, everything is okay, searching for a job. I really like the city, it's green and clean, and already met there few friends: Dimenran, Yomi-Ferus and F-Shearwater. Great artists and wonderful people. Honestly, for a long time I wanted to visit Russia because of people living in there, I don't care about governments of both countries, generally, being close to anarchist I hate any power and freaks who tries to control people. Any country government try to do something in their own interest, no one really thinks about people, no matter they say. I don't want to talk about black and white sides, the war is a gray area, I only say: don't believe everything you see in news, there's a mess, it's a governments conflict, there's no bad people, all regular people scared on both sides, no one really wants war. I was in a ruined city, and went to the Russia on my own will. Dot.

For the site and art activity, I started to check groups, generally, I need some help to run them, especially creature-concepts and Worlds-And-Beasts, I just have no enough free time. I've started to post new drawings and that'd be great to find time to finish older unfinished things. I've saved all of my unique data, so there's no problems on that.

Hug everyone

The digital creature and fantasy artist WingedAyalis is holding an art raffle:

They're work a lot on fantasy and fantastical beasts and different characters

This journal entry doesn't mean that I'm leaving DeviantART, it's about my accounts at other sites where I post working sketches, WIPs, unfinished designs and everything like that, things I can't or don't want to post in my main gallery here.

Instagram: Kehhalar. Generally, photo and different sketches account.

Toyhouse: Kehhalar. NuUrg project characters concept art hub.

VK: NuUrg universe. Started as NuUrg project concept art general hub, but went to be an art blog. Russian only.

VK: Darya Chernenkaya. My personal page, russian only.

YouTube: Darya Chernenkaya. Not pretty active, but plan to add some new Harry Potter games custom maps videos.

FurAffinity: Kehhalar. This one is still under construction.

I also have Facebook page, but it's the less active account and almost have no connection to art or other creative activity now

So... where to begin?

The CamaroLp username was created in hurry when I created an account at my first forum. It was a Linkin Park fans website, one of many, but I liked it and people in there so became a part of it. And as I said, my username was created in a hurry and it was a mix of two things I like: Chevrolet Camaro (some of watchers can remember I used this car photo as an avatar in here, also the "camaro" slang word means "friend") and Linkin Park (obvious, heh, I used their short abbreviation). There was also a slight relation due to the Transformers movies, there were both Camaro and Linkin Park music.

It was 2010 year.

But time passed, I started to think about my username, at that time I hadn't the actual reason to change it and didn't know what the new username should be. Just didn't feel comfy enough with the old username. I wasn't seriously thinking a lot about username changing before the 2017 year accident...

Now I know, that thought to change the username after things happened would be just another try to run from the problem and that's good I didn't changed it at that time. It wasn't the time to change, what can you change when your wings are broken? So it was a better choice to wait. However the uncomfy feeling about the username increased for the few months at least. Later the feeling became the same as it was before, but it's another story.

I decided to change my username to Kehhalar after all what happened to me and all mind and perceptual changes I got since October 2020. I've let go so much pain and mistakes, though I'm still changing... It's like a wake from a long sleep. Or a rise from the ashes, a new start. And like a phoenix in human culture, Kehhalar is a symbol of rebirth in the culture of tainuri people.

For a long time I wasn't sure should I use an username connected to my NuUrg project or it'd be better to have some neutral one. I've finally lost this uncertainty due to a real phoenix I've found among humans, the one who shown me that thing you love and think constantly, work on for years and get results can't be a vaste of time, it's a part of your life.

Now I'm Kehhalar.

You still can call me Camaro or Cama, as you used to, but I am Kehhalar.

I am.

And will be